spent

Spent- used up; consumed. exhausted of active or required components are qualities often for a particular purpose. To be drained of energy or effectiveness.

Yes, after the actives of the last couple of weeks, I am definitely spent. I absolutely love the opportunities God has placed before me with my job. Doing what we are passionate about is energizing and life renewing. To do the things I am passionate about, particularly ministry, a good bit of energy (mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical) must be exerted. And while it is an amazing experience, it is certainly draining.

My problem is the refuel process. I'm not patient, and I want this process to happen quickly. I have things to do, and waiting for a form of normalness to reappear in my strength is not something I feel I have time for. Yet God made our bodies to need rest. He formed us to need Him and to need His strength.

In Mark 5:30, Jesus has an experience with a woman who had been ill with a bleeding problem for a long time. The woman knew that if she could just touch Jesus, she would be healed. Reaching out to secretly touch His cloak, the woman found herself the center of attention when Jesus asked who touched Him. Jesus knew this was not just a simple bump of a crowded street. The scripture says that Jesus knew that power had left Him. If Jesus, being both man and God, had the experience of strength and power leaving His body, how much more so is it that we encounter this?

Jesus took time in His ministry to retreat to the Father's presence and distance himself when needed from others. Yet when I find myself drained, I for some reason want to cling to others and neglect alone time. Why are we so backwards?? Why do we insist on doing it our way and forfeiting the reviving that comes from doing it by God's example.